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Subject:Intention
Time:12:57 am
Current Mood:contemplativecontemplative
 Intention:

Focus. Read more, write more, study more. Take real breaks that involve physical activity and a release of my thoughts. Make a list of every distraction that attempts to seduce me. Think less, do more.
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Subject:Me in two words
Time:12:50 am
Current Mood:thoughtfulthoughtful
I have a plethora of interests. Healthcare, prehistoric fauna, herbalism, writing articles, writing fantasy and science fiction, shamanism. That's just the tip of the iceberg.

My interests in writing are easy to explain--I like writing. Fiction, nonfiction. I like to put words on a page in a beneficial and pleasing manner.

My other interests--the hodge-podge of paganism, natural medicine, allopathy, and the natural sciences--is less easy for me to explain, though I feel there is a common thread connecting all of these (seemingly) disparate passions and curiosities. I often feel as though these interests spring from the same source. I used to believe that the source was simply "curiosity," or even my deep spiritual interest that everything is connected. But why do I not have the same curiosity for, say, cars? What is this deep hunger for knowledge in these fields and topics, and why these subjects in particular?

Yesterday, I finally stumbled upon the word that connects all of these interests: "nature." Natural medicine, human nature, natural sciences, nature spirituality, preservation of nature.

Writing and "nature." That about sums me up. Funny--the fact that I can be generally explained in two words makes me feel better.
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Current Music:tonight, just the fans whirring
Current Location:Ft. Lauderdale, FL
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Subject:Alter ego round-up
Time:02:21 am
Current Mood:accomplishedaccomplished
The weeks are just chugging by. I can't believe it's been a month since my last round-up.

I received the contract from Carina Press for my steampunk novella. The contract is 14 pages long with words in small type, and it has Harlequin's logo emblazoned all over it, so I feel rather official. I also feel like there may be a hidden clause in there somewhere asking for my firstborn. I am waiting for a contract advisor from the National Writer's Union to get back to me about reviewing it with me. I would love to learn how to negotiate a contract, even though half of me is screaming SIGN IT! FOR THE GODS' SAKE, JUST SIGN IT, YOU BOOB!

I finished the edits for the first chapter of my YA urban fantasy. I survived about one and a half days of pure blood-pressure-raising-anger...then took a sigh of relief when the chapter started to clean up. (Thank you, luellon for assuring me that the anger is normal!) I am now immensely pleased with the edits, and think the chapter is much tighter--also, a little more informative and interesting. So far, I love my editor. (I just hope she loves my edits!)

I finally got a book review up on one of my blogs. It's for the YA werewolf romance, Shiver. I really liked the novel, though I have slightly mixed feelings. This is mostly because, as a writer, I can't help but pull things apart--and I am still trying to figure out how Maggie Stiefvater managed to make such a slow story so engaging. I <3. I am impressed.

Got a few new articles up on Suite101. Find out about three herbal remedies you may have never heard of before: wood betony (cure-all and headache relief), lobelia (great for cough and fevers, but it'll make you vomit), and catnip (yes, this kitty drug will make you--and your children--sleepy...it will also relieve fevers and pain).

Now, back to my regularly scheduled procrastinati--er, homework and writing. ^_^

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Subject:Numen...Herbs...and Video Games?
Time:02:13 am
Current Mood:contemplativecontemplative
 I have had a day chock-full of editing, reading, and writing. Almost 12 hours sitting at the same table, staring at words on a screen and on the page. It's true, I used to come home from work and do these things as recreation. Now, I just needed a break.

Never idle [though always procrastinating], I decided to put in Numen: The Nature of Plants. It's a gorgeous documentary about herbalism. Beautiful, calming, and introspective, it's like...a Reiki treatment in a DVD. After a half hour of watching it, I feel calm and grounded. I am aware of the steady rhythm of my breath. And the world outside is calling me, calling me to come tip my face up to the moon. It's been a while since I have had a moment with Spirit.

Something struck me as I watched crisp scenes of wheat fields and distant cities: I want to live. I want to see the world. I want to get out and experience.

A parallel thought was that I was glad I'd chosen to watch Numen instead of succumb to the siren song of an on-line game. I didn't need more mindless action. I needed a moment to breathe. A moment of introspection.

Those two thoughts together produced another: I have always loved video games, but as I get older, I would rather play in real life than play in virtual life. Funny, my dad has always been fascinated with how increasingly "real" games are. I grew up with Doom, Quake, Tomb Raider... Each game, progressively more realistic than the last. I shared my dad's enthusiasm.

Now, no matter how "real" games are...they simply don't interest me like walking outside and running a palm frond through my hand. I have actually begun to look at the world around me and think, Oh, wow, these graphics are amazing! Ha! Well, what's better than the original? :)

I really want to get out there, and be, and do. The world is amazing and huge, just full of interesting things and people. I want to go!
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Subject:Alter ego round-up
Time:08:32 pm
Current Mood:cheerfulcheerful
My first steampunk novella was accepted! This means I have a second book being published! Woo-hoo! :D

My first book finally has an editor! It's only been about five months since acceptance.

My parents have a new puppy! I feel like petitioning the dictionary to add "Po" as a synonym to "cute." Just sayin'.

Working on an article about wood betony, which I am currently procrastinating from. 
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Subject:Lessons from magic and Spider
Time:03:14 pm
Current Mood:accomplishedaccomplished
Dabbling in magic has taught me an important life lesson: Put energy into an intent, but don't lust for results (p. 17). The way I've figured it is, you're going to get what you want--but maybe not when you thought you wanted it, or how. And what we ask for isn't always what we actually want. You've got to detach yourself and keep your eyes open, keep your mind open to receiving.

Spider is teaching me a similar lesson. She's showing me that I need to weave my web one thread at a time. I have to have the whole in mind, but work on each part separately and with focus. I need to break my big goals into smaller goals, and my smaller goals into steps. Only when I've completed each tiny task can I finally complete the whole web. 

And then, I must wait patiently in the corner for the Universe to send me a juicy bug. :)
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Subject:"Maybe it's just you."
Time:03:11 am
Current Mood:tiredtired
Last week, insomnia was briefly mentioned in pathophysiology class. Very briefly--just enough to get my attention, pique my curiosity, and whet my appetite. Since my professor is a practicing nurse practitioner, I thought I'd pick her brain after the lecture.*

A bit of background: I've had insomnia since middle school, off and on. I've had every kind of insomnia, and for virtually every reason, in every permutation. Can't fall asleep, can't stay asleep, wake up too early. Too anxious, too thoughtful, too hot, too uncomfortable, too hungry, too noisy, too bright, too jazzed, too tired--or, despite being drowsy, drifting, cozy, and comfortable, just can't pierce the veil of sleep. [And it probably doesn't help that I've been off of a "normal" daylight schedule since graduating high school, as attested by the fact that I am writing this at 3 a.m. ::blinks owlishly::]

I gave my professor the truncated version of this and asked her what might be causing it, besides the myriad of little reasons. She made a face of, "Aw, heck, how should I know?" and said, "Hey! Have you tried--" (and here I waited for her to list one of the numerous remedies I've already trialed to no lasting avail) "--passionflower?"

"Yes," I replied. "I've tried it all!" Valerian, oatmeal, melatonin. Tinctures and teas. Chamomile and lemon balm. A white noise machine. Aromatherapy. Reiki. Shooting myself.

"Oh." And then, she clasped her hands, looked at me with a quirk of her eyebrows and her lips, and said, "Well, it also could just be you."

Oh. Well, then. 

Not a response I had been expecting. And...it's strangely comforting. The fact that I don't need to be diagnosed is a relief. I simply have insomnia. I am free to accept it as a part of my life and move on.

Ahh
. Thank you.



*...seeming as I've avoided seeing a healthcare provider regarding this problem, even when I had health insurance. I'm afraid to get a puzzled pat on the head and a prescription for Restoril--even though I would like said prescription. Ultimately, I'm afraid that the "magic bullet" will stop working. Then what?
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Subject:Score for the Kindle!
Time:02:41 pm
Current Mood:cheerfulcheerful
For Christmas, I received a Kindle. I had wanted one primarily so that I could finally make a dent in my long--and growing--Internet reading list. There's just gobs and gobs of nifty free material on the Net that I haven't been able to read simply because I hate reading on the computer. I also don't like the idea of wasting dead trees, inks, and energy on pages and pages and pages of printing so that I can read it off the computer.

So, enter the Kindle: portable, easy on the eyes, free 3G. Didn't take much of an argument for me.

In the months that I've had it, I've found it satisfying to read on. A little "cramped," since--in essence--you can only see one page at a time, but it has other merits to make up for that (like, the ability to change font size. With my vision, that's a boon). It's also annoying when you want to flip around in a story; good to keep me from skipping ahead (ahem--bad habit), but bad if I want to flip back to reference an earlier passage or remember a character or whatnot. The 3G can be convenient, but it's also terribly clunky and not always worth the effort. I can download books directly from Project Gutenberg, although it's largely been an exercise in patience and painful dentistry.

A couple days ago, I rediscovered my interest in baxil 's shared world project, TTU. There is a lot of available material--much more than I remember years ago. Yay! But also, Oh, no! So...much...good...stuff! Too...little...time! I thought I'd give the TTU wiki a whirl on the Kindle--and I was very, very pleased. 

It almost feels as if the Kindle was made for the TTU wiki. I am loading and navigating the site with ease, and I'm brushing up on my alternate history much quicker than I'd otherwise be able. Aaahhh...

Not a plug for Kindle. Just sharing a "squee!" moment. Very, very pleased--and enjoying TTU immensely. :D
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Subject:?
Time:04:07 pm
Current Mood:thoughtfulthoughtful
::blinks::

Why, hello, Livejournal. I keep forgetting you exist. And then I remember how much I like you and think I'd like to start using you again.
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Subject:mentally pacing
Time:03:02 am
Current Mood:weirdweird
It's been an interesting couple of weeks. Figuratively speaking, I feel like the world is spinning as I stand still.

Oh, wait. It is.

My social life has been disrupted, I constantly wish I was back at school, and the change that came with moving out of my parents house and in with my best friend from elementary school is just hitting me. It's been two weeks now since I've taken Reiki Level I, and I've made upwards of 20 jars of aromatherapeutic salves over the last week. I haven't updated Danny's Story in weeks. The thought of writing is turning me off.

I think I'm experiencing one of those shifts in my life that I haven't felt for some time. I mutter to myself, pine for the future, pace around the house, stare at beautiful things, and question every aspect of my life. At the end of high school and the beginning of college, it was my everyday existence. Then, life itself swept me off my feet, and for the last few years I've just been going along for the ride. I actually worried when I stopped talking to myself all the time. Now, every silence is broken by my voice once again.

I feel like something is waiting to give. Some invisible bubble is growing bigger and bigger, reaching a tension point, waiting to pop. Except, my bubble can't pop for another seven and a half months. I'm stuck in place, waiting for my work contract to end and school to begin.

And something else, too. Some other change is waiting. Some other tension is building. I don't know what it is.

I'm going to check out Temple Arts soon, and look into some classes -- tai chi, qi gong, yoga, pilates, bellydance, martial arts. Build up my core, get myself moving, maybe earn back some of the grace I had when I was taking dance classes.

Time's up. Time for tonight's Reiki, then sleep.

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